Money Notes and Quotes

I'm celebrating this afternoon after getting turned down for a loan. What's to celebrate you may wonder? I didn't take it personally, I didn't dip into feeling bad, not even for a minute! I am celebrating the verification that I have purged myself of all the bad feelings and shamefulness I picked up about me and my money in my long ago childhood. Yippeeeee!!!!!

After I got off the phone I remembered an experience I had years ago as a young mother. I checked out at the supermarket and discovered that I had no money with me. I so vividly remember the emotional churn of embarrassment, shame and humiliation I gave myself (no one else was generating my feelings!) as I explained to the clerk that I had to go home to get the money. I didn't know then, I was overreacting to the experience. I didn't know then I was being way too emotional and that there was no reason for me to freak out so. It was really no big deal; it was my emotional tripwires run amok and making an emotional mountain out of an experiential money molehill.

So, today I am celebrating freedom from monemotional molehills. I am celebrating that I now am entitled to a free credit report. I am celebrating that my credit score which really took a whacking as a result of many years of Lyme disease and being the guest of honor in a real estate swindle has gone up over 100 points in the last six months. I am also celebrating that I am now trusting that the Universe will deliver the cash to get my book going in a fun and easy way -- and that I won't have to pay it back or pay interest.

From where I sit, getting turned down was great news!