Money Notes and Quotes

I was on track for an Olympic record for avoiding meditation. Although I had read and heard for two and a half decades -- at least- that meditation would bring great benefits into my life, I could not get enough obvious and quick benefit to justify the effort it took for me to meditate.

Like a beginner at any sport, my meditation efforts found me frustrated because I wasn't getting relaxed and easy as a result of it, I was getting frustrated. No, I know that's all about judgment and one does meditation to stop being in a place of judgment. But, that was my experience for decades.

Earlier this winter at the Wealth Attraction Weekend I attended I was gifted with a CD done by Jennifer McLean
(www.healingrelease.com) and now, I not only am loving the meditation, I look forward to it. I'd encourage you to get her Soul Song for 2009.

Then, I was gifted by what I term a "download from the Universe." That lovely interlude between sleeping and waking, or waking and sleeping in the evening, has become one of my favorite times of day. I love the coziness and warmth of my bed. I love the quiet of that time. I love the release of the concerns or, in the morning, the space before, the concerns of the day.

The download was that as I lie happily and cozily in that lovely interlude to feel the loving energy of the Universe surrounding me and to let go of the belief that my body is solid (we know that no thing is solid) and merge into the energy. I envision a cocoon of loving, healing, wealthing, expanding energy surrounding me; I am surrounded by it and immersed in it.

In those delicious moments, I am not separated from love, healing, wealth, beauty, energy; I can feel all of them. I can allow myself to "Be" all of them.

Isn't it interesting that when I was a kid, they taught me to say prayers, morning and night? They gave me ritual words that got recited in a monotone with the "get done with this as fast as I can" attitude. It never felt good. I wonder if whoever created those prayer rituals really wanted others to find what my cocooning meditation is now creating for me. I'll never know.

What I do know is, that after decades of resisting meditation, I've found two processes that I really enjoy. The first is Jennifer's CD and the second is my morning and evening cocooning, where I blissfully shut off my mind and focus on being surrounded and immersed in a gentle, loving wrapping of loving energy.

And so I am!